What Next?

Yesterday was my last day at Dilly Lily, the flower shop where I have worked since Eric and I moved into the city two years ago. I feel a little sad and a little relieved and a little lost. I don't know what my next job will be. I have another part time job at a little housewares boutique to tide me over, but I am not sure what my next goal should be. And it isn't that comforting to know that everyone feels this way when they graduate and start to search for a career or a new trajectory for their life. I just don't know what mine should be. It felt anti-climactic to just walk out the door, and know I won't be back in the same context ever again. It was the first job I ever felt proud to do, and the first time I was really encouraged to be creative and artistic. Christine even let me set up an art show in the shop. I'll miss it, but I know I needed to move on.